today

So back at work after a long weekend. The weekend was mostly busy so it kept most of the bad thoughts at bay. Had a couple of family functions and made the mistake of having a few drinks. Not a lot but I guess enough to make my mood worse. I should really stay away from alcohol all together. I feel like harming today. I could feel the stress building of coming back to the office and seeing her.  It was at its worse last night. This morning has been somewhat bearable so far. Trying to keep my head down and myself to myself. Just get on with work but it is not overly busy. These are the dangerous days when I have too much to time to think and get more and more depressed.