Empty
Stevan,
I feel empty inside not having you here with me, to touch and hold, kiss and tell you how much you mean to me and the kids and how much we love you, you will never know how much we love you. I hope that there is truth to Heaven and the people who have passed can feel all the love we still here have for them. If I could send my love to you there wouldn't be a big enough container to hold it all. I was doing OK today , Jon and Kris and Little Matthew(SPANKY) were here all day, Kris made us some Lasagna and I just am a little happier when Spanky is here, he does make me smile and Kyle too. But after they left tonite I went downstairs to throw a load of Laundry in ( I haven't been doing your job as well as you :) but when I saw your clothes and shoes in the closet I lost it again. I don't know when I will ever be able to remove your things, it seems so final and right now I don't want that. To see all your things makes me hurt so bad I want to just curl up in a ball and cry. to think of all the things you have here that we bought together and you bought for your job and the memories hurt beyond explanation. I really miss you Stevan and I wish you could come home for one more day so I could say all the things I need to say to you. I didn't get the chance the day you died, you left to fast I wasn't even back in the hospital I should have left the damn truck in the way and followed you into the room but I would have probably totally fallen apart when you crashed the 1st time before they even got you the ER room, that was only 20 ft from the main door, I didn't get to tell you I love you before I ran out to move the truck. I know we said it everyday, and when I left to go shopping that afternoon with Casey I kissed you goodbye and told you I loved you, but I wish I did before you left the earth and went to Heaven. Can you hear me Stevan? I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU
ALWAYS & ALWAYS
FOREVER & EVER
LAUR
I feel empty inside not having you here with me, to touch and hold, kiss and tell you how much you mean to me and the kids and how much we love you, you will never know how much we love you. I hope that there is truth to Heaven and the people who have passed can feel all the love we still here have for them. If I could send my love to you there wouldn't be a big enough container to hold it all. I was doing OK today , Jon and Kris and Little Matthew(SPANKY) were here all day, Kris made us some Lasagna and I just am a little happier when Spanky is here, he does make me smile and Kyle too. But after they left tonite I went downstairs to throw a load of Laundry in ( I haven't been doing your job as well as you :) but when I saw your clothes and shoes in the closet I lost it again. I don't know when I will ever be able to remove your things, it seems so final and right now I don't want that. To see all your things makes me hurt so bad I want to just curl up in a ball and cry. to think of all the things you have here that we bought together and you bought for your job and the memories hurt beyond explanation. I really miss you Stevan and I wish you could come home for one more day so I could say all the things I need to say to you. I didn't get the chance the day you died, you left to fast I wasn't even back in the hospital I should have left the damn truck in the way and followed you into the room but I would have probably totally fallen apart when you crashed the 1st time before they even got you the ER room, that was only 20 ft from the main door, I didn't get to tell you I love you before I ran out to move the truck. I know we said it everyday, and when I left to go shopping that afternoon with Casey I kissed you goodbye and told you I loved you, but I wish I did before you left the earth and went to Heaven. Can you hear me Stevan? I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU
ALWAYS & ALWAYS
FOREVER & EVER
LAUR
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You have written another beautiful tribute of absolute love to Steven. I am so sorry you did not get a chance to tell him you loved him just one more time. But please know that he KNEW you loved him dearly. You told him every day. You told him often. He had and has no doubt about your love for him.
I so hope you can find some comfort in knowing that he truly knew of your love . Many hugs of friendship to you.
Hunny im sorry your having a hard time, I know it will get better it just takes time, never stop talking to him, hes listening.
Thank you both for your caring and love. Darlene I got the book Finally today. I started reading it, only 42 pages, it is quite thick and big for a paperback book. But as I get into it more I will let you know about it OK.
Thank you again and
Peace and Love to you both
Laurie