Broken

I'm beginning to feel like I may just be broken forever. The chronic pain leads to more mental distress on top of the already existing depression. The pain meds help a bit but not enough. For some dumb reason I thought this morning was going to bring about a new start but I was wrong. I've fallen back into the nightmare as quickly as I thought that I came out of it. How sad and frustrating.
One day I pray soon things will get better. That day is not today. My only hope for today is taking more pain meds and going back to sleep. In my dreams I happy and pain free. I wish I could dream forever.
Why do I keep setting myself up for disappointment? I just need to accept that pain and suffering is now my life. If I have a good minute, hour maybe even an entire day then I will have to enjoy those small windows. Someday things will get back to normal. I'm not sure how I ended up broken like this but it's here now so I just need to push forward and pray for a better future.
Please God help me...