Swollen cryed-out eyes...the feeling of worthlessness, being scared to death because you have nowhere to go, no money and no job.  I can't understand why I put myself here again. I want to die .. I swear I do.  But something keeps me here. Let's just hope this time I do things the right way and leave this rotten cold-hearted bastard behind.  I'M SO DONE.  No one will believe me this time, because I never do what's right...I always end up back in this circle. God, please lead me out and help me stay out this time.  I don't want to live or die this way.