Just not so sure what kind of mood I'm in...another longggg road trip last weekend.  Went all the way from Ohio to Long Island, New York and back .... all in about 43 hours.  I took a trip with the "separated husband" (for lack of better words) to pick up a wood chipper that he found online at an excellent price.  That was a joy, let me tell you.  I would be happy if I never went to New York again..people drive crazzzzy there! I was scared to death while driving there.  I was so happy to be able to drive all the way through Pennsylvania, though. That is the most beautiful place I have ever seen.  As I drove through, I wondered if I was close to where "snowbaby" lived and I looked up to the sky and said a prayer for her several times. I don't know what I'm doing when it comes to him anymore...One minute things are good, the next, crappy.  I know what I need to do, I just can't seem to do it.   What's new...stuck in this same cycle...over and over again.. I'm sure I will just end up dying like this.  My kids frickin hate me now...my daughter seems to be following in my footsteps with an abusive boyfriend...Unbelievable. I just wish I could crawl in a dark hole sometimes... OkK well enough of my pity party I guess.  As usual, I will just sweep all those feelings under the carpet and put on a frickin smile.Yeah me.