Have spent a fairly pleasant day , went for a walk this morning with my husband and our kids then he went to work so I went to pick up my sister and we took our kids up to my mums house for dinner. I did feel better because i was surrounded by people and not on my own, just cant seem to get over this being on my own thing, I used to love my own company and prefer it to being with others!! But lately I find myself constantly looking at other people and wondering about their lives and whether they are better than mine, I know this is silly and futile but just cant help it, am also worrying about getting old and being alone, dont know why i have all these thoughts its awful and want to stop!