Reflection.

Last semester was a trainwreck. I always see how well I am mentally reflected in my study because it's what I try to give my all to. I hate how I allow myself to get overwhelmed and allow for these disorders to take over and ruin what I love the most. I hate failure. Getting through this at university is hard. Sometimes I feel as though I'm presenting a much more successful image than what is really happening inside. My moods got so bad last semester and I hate how it impacts my relationship but I honestly don't know how to do better sometimes. I feel like i'm drowning sometimes and like the light at the end of the tunnel is so far away its barely visible.I crave normality and its as though it will never be there. I can't be like every one else my own age. It sucks. I want to be normal.