Limbo
Haven't been able to write for a bit. Just couldn't get the words out. Still feel like they are choking me.
Went away for the weekend and took my whole family. It was a mistake. They were too crowded together and my one daughter in law just was silent or snippy. I don't know what is wrong with her. She was never like this when she lived with us, but always upbeat and smiling. Now she seems cranky every time I see her. It is hard as I liked her so and now almost dread her coming over. Afraid to say anything at all to her as she snaps at people.
Her and my middle got into one fight and my oldest told me as he left they wouldn't go with us in the car again. So last of my whole family on vacation. So sad to it all dissolve before my eyes. I miss my oldest son so.
I am back at work this week. It is good to get out of the house and away from sulky youngest son who puts of waves of irritation all day, but hard too as that "public" face has to go on and I have to talk and laugh and be with others.
My mother is going on a month long trip with her boyfriend. This is the second one this summer, but she has not visited any of her children. Just his family. I guess she does not want any of us to meet him or him to meet us is probably more likely. She didn't bring h im for oldest son's wedding which insulted me. I know I shouldn't really care as our relationship is so damaged, but she seemed more herself when she talked about him and I had high hopes he might change her back to the mother I had before my dad died, but I didn't even get to meet him.
There is just so much to say, but I have to go to work and can't afford to break down. My thoughts are so jumbled and my emotions so full.
I have also lost so many friends on here again. I know I should be happy for them that they moved on and are doing better, but I miss them.
Went away for the weekend and took my whole family. It was a mistake. They were too crowded together and my one daughter in law just was silent or snippy. I don't know what is wrong with her. She was never like this when she lived with us, but always upbeat and smiling. Now she seems cranky every time I see her. It is hard as I liked her so and now almost dread her coming over. Afraid to say anything at all to her as she snaps at people.
Her and my middle got into one fight and my oldest told me as he left they wouldn't go with us in the car again. So last of my whole family on vacation. So sad to it all dissolve before my eyes. I miss my oldest son so.
I am back at work this week. It is good to get out of the house and away from sulky youngest son who puts of waves of irritation all day, but hard too as that "public" face has to go on and I have to talk and laugh and be with others.
My mother is going on a month long trip with her boyfriend. This is the second one this summer, but she has not visited any of her children. Just his family. I guess she does not want any of us to meet him or him to meet us is probably more likely. She didn't bring h im for oldest son's wedding which insulted me. I know I shouldn't really care as our relationship is so damaged, but she seemed more herself when she talked about him and I had high hopes he might change her back to the mother I had before my dad died, but I didn't even get to meet him.
There is just so much to say, but I have to go to work and can't afford to break down. My thoughts are so jumbled and my emotions so full.
I have also lost so many friends on here again. I know I should be happy for them that they moved on and are doing better, but I miss them.
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Maybe you are better off having your kids not be at home. You seem to have problems with all of them. Kick them all out and live life for yourself. The world does not need to revolve around your children. They need to learn how to make it on their own and some tough love might be what they need to get that to happen. Stand up for yourself. You should be priority number one
I don\'t know how to live my own life. My happiness seems to revolve around my children. I was a stay at home mom for years. My children were my life. I don\'t know how to move on. I joined the site for the empty nest group, but it hardly gets posted on except in Sept when everyone\'s children leave for college. Then they all seem to let go before Christmas and they are fine. My problem just continues. My husband laughs at me for having trouble letting go and doesn\'t understand. My friend just went and got a dog. I know I would be better off letting go of my kids, but I don\'t know how.