Stress
One week until vacation. Did not cave and fetch youngest's girlfriend last week. Could have several times, but didn't do it. We offered to get her last Saturday and she was busy. We were down near her house. It is a 1.5 hour drive to get her and another 1.5 hours to take her back home. I had the time, but youngest son not being nice and friendly so didn't deserve it and like I said we had a day we were down near her house. How out of may way should I go for him when I get so little in return. Of course punished myself as he was so cranky and nasty.
Don't want to go on vacation. So stressed about the personalities conflicting. Taking middle son, who is always volatile, his wife who is usually sweet and wonderful, but they have been fighting a lot and it makes me uncomfortable. Then youngest who is so sulky and nasty I go out of the house on unnessesary errands just to get out from under his cloud, and his girlfriend who will hopefully make him behave, but she is a little unpredictable. First vacation we have taken her on although she has spent the night at the house twice. She has a lot of food issues, trips and hurts herself a lot, and says she has night terrors. So worried about feeding her, taking her to the hospital, and not sleeping much.
Husband is not helping with anything so feel very overwhelmed. He is supposed to vacuum the living room and mop the kitchen weekly. He asked what he could do to help me months ago and I assigned him those chores. He said fine, but never does them. Second week he didn't so I have to now as floor is sticky and living room covered in cat hair clumps It is just gross. If I bug him about it he either tells me he did do it, which I know he didn't, or that it doesn't need it.
He is supposed to be getting the camper ready for vacation and don't think he has even finished flushing the water tank. I made him go out and set it up and test the A/C, but he only did it as our house A/C went out. Had two days last week dealing with that. We have a home warranty, but they couldn't get anyone out until today. So paid someone a grand to fix it Thursday morning. It was 90 in here so had to buy a portable unit for one room just so I didn't die. I hate the heat.
Oldest son and middle son want to do different things on Saturdays now. I guess family day we have had for years is over. Breaks my heart. I know they are grown, but I got to see them. Middle did not come this last Saturday for family day. Oldest didn't come Friday night for fireworks.
Youngest sulked through both days and almost wished he was gone too. Just so tired of all the drama and even more the scheduling things and asking if people want to show up for stuff and they dont. I know they have their own lives. But they get annoyed if they are left out of things so I am required to invite them, then I get hurt when they say no. I need to just plan things and go without them, but don't want to hurt their feelings. I wish I could just let go.
I am just rambling and making no sense. Stressed, tried, panicy today. Going to be a long day if I don't get over it.
Don't want to go on vacation. So stressed about the personalities conflicting. Taking middle son, who is always volatile, his wife who is usually sweet and wonderful, but they have been fighting a lot and it makes me uncomfortable. Then youngest who is so sulky and nasty I go out of the house on unnessesary errands just to get out from under his cloud, and his girlfriend who will hopefully make him behave, but she is a little unpredictable. First vacation we have taken her on although she has spent the night at the house twice. She has a lot of food issues, trips and hurts herself a lot, and says she has night terrors. So worried about feeding her, taking her to the hospital, and not sleeping much.
Husband is not helping with anything so feel very overwhelmed. He is supposed to vacuum the living room and mop the kitchen weekly. He asked what he could do to help me months ago and I assigned him those chores. He said fine, but never does them. Second week he didn't so I have to now as floor is sticky and living room covered in cat hair clumps It is just gross. If I bug him about it he either tells me he did do it, which I know he didn't, or that it doesn't need it.
He is supposed to be getting the camper ready for vacation and don't think he has even finished flushing the water tank. I made him go out and set it up and test the A/C, but he only did it as our house A/C went out. Had two days last week dealing with that. We have a home warranty, but they couldn't get anyone out until today. So paid someone a grand to fix it Thursday morning. It was 90 in here so had to buy a portable unit for one room just so I didn't die. I hate the heat.
Oldest son and middle son want to do different things on Saturdays now. I guess family day we have had for years is over. Breaks my heart. I know they are grown, but I got to see them. Middle did not come this last Saturday for family day. Oldest didn't come Friday night for fireworks.
Youngest sulked through both days and almost wished he was gone too. Just so tired of all the drama and even more the scheduling things and asking if people want to show up for stuff and they dont. I know they have their own lives. But they get annoyed if they are left out of things so I am required to invite them, then I get hurt when they say no. I need to just plan things and go without them, but don't want to hurt their feelings. I wish I could just let go.
I am just rambling and making no sense. Stressed, tried, panicy today. Going to be a long day if I don't get over it.
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