So Tired
I have been so tired since the wedding. Hard to get over my disappointment and the stress of all the family and friends visiting. Went back to work the morning after. Big mistake, then my youngest son announced he is dropping out of college after a year. No idea what he will do. He plans to live with us so have to decide how to deal with that. Sitting on the couch all day is not ok. Been a week since he told us and I am still so freaked out about it.
Business is slow at work which isn't helping. I have too much time to sit around and think. But in a way I am glad as I have just no energy whatsoever. I come home exhausted every day. I have no patience with clients who are being stupid and with 2 weeks left until April 15th the crazies are sure coming out of the woodwork. I have left early three days this week and it hasn't helped. Of course I worked Sunday so working 6 days in a row.
My youngest son started his part time summer job today and so I came home early thinking I would have the house to myself for a bit as desperately need some time alone to just cry or scream or sleep or something, but so tired of putting on the public face I want to just fall over.
Of course I get here and my oldest son is working graveyards tonight and came over to do laundry. He is grumpy and snappish about the graveyards and says he will be exhausted and unhappy over Easter dinner as he has to work Friday night into Saturday morning. Of course I get snapped at when I asked why he will be tired on Sunday if he is off Saturday morning until Sunday evening when they plan to have dinner with us. He says well it takes days to recover from graveyards.
Then home comes my daughter in law 10 minutes later so now I have two and she opens a box of cups. I laugh and ask if they are plastic or glass as know she likes glass and he likes plastic. I get snapped at that they are plastic and she can just keep drinking out of the glass one she likes. Told her it wasn't a big deal was just curious who got to choose. Got glared at for that too.
Then tired to talk about something else and got how I didn't understand and blah, blah, blah. Wish they would just leave. I am so tired of everyone and getting my feelings hurt.
Yesterday I got home early and my middle son was here. He jumped off the couch and said he had to go home and do work. I said I would have missed him completely as I was home 45 minutes early. He said oh he would have waited. Um then why did he have to run off. So he went to lunch with me today I guess to make up for it. I had to leave work and missed a client. Found out his wife was off today, but she decided not to have lunch with us. More hurt feelings. I am overly sensitive I guess.
Two more weeks and then will shift to summer hours. Hope I don't work every day. I really need some time to distress and get my act back together.
Business is slow at work which isn't helping. I have too much time to sit around and think. But in a way I am glad as I have just no energy whatsoever. I come home exhausted every day. I have no patience with clients who are being stupid and with 2 weeks left until April 15th the crazies are sure coming out of the woodwork. I have left early three days this week and it hasn't helped. Of course I worked Sunday so working 6 days in a row.
My youngest son started his part time summer job today and so I came home early thinking I would have the house to myself for a bit as desperately need some time alone to just cry or scream or sleep or something, but so tired of putting on the public face I want to just fall over.
Of course I get here and my oldest son is working graveyards tonight and came over to do laundry. He is grumpy and snappish about the graveyards and says he will be exhausted and unhappy over Easter dinner as he has to work Friday night into Saturday morning. Of course I get snapped at when I asked why he will be tired on Sunday if he is off Saturday morning until Sunday evening when they plan to have dinner with us. He says well it takes days to recover from graveyards.
Then home comes my daughter in law 10 minutes later so now I have two and she opens a box of cups. I laugh and ask if they are plastic or glass as know she likes glass and he likes plastic. I get snapped at that they are plastic and she can just keep drinking out of the glass one she likes. Told her it wasn't a big deal was just curious who got to choose. Got glared at for that too.
Then tired to talk about something else and got how I didn't understand and blah, blah, blah. Wish they would just leave. I am so tired of everyone and getting my feelings hurt.
Yesterday I got home early and my middle son was here. He jumped off the couch and said he had to go home and do work. I said I would have missed him completely as I was home 45 minutes early. He said oh he would have waited. Um then why did he have to run off. So he went to lunch with me today I guess to make up for it. I had to leave work and missed a client. Found out his wife was off today, but she decided not to have lunch with us. More hurt feelings. I am overly sensitive I guess.
Two more weeks and then will shift to summer hours. Hope I don't work every day. I really need some time to distress and get my act back together.
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Sounds tiring and stressful.My kids do the same to me.I\'m always exhausted and crying about something.You need some time to yourself soon.I hope Easter is a pleasant day for you and everyone is being nice to you.I\'m having everyone here for Easter too.Plus my daughter is working that morning,so i told her i\'d pick up my grandson and take him to church and the park so he\'s not stuck in the house all day with his dad.Than home to cook for a dinner.The thought of it makes me just over it already.lol.....Its a shame your youngest is giving up on college.what can u do though.i guess its really not for everyone.Its good that he is starting a summer job.I hope my middle son finds one this summer when he\'s home from college.He seems to not even want to try.I think its anxiety plus he\'s always applied in the past and never been hired.idk...Hugs to you!
Thanks for making me feel not so alone. Snapped at again. Apparently I am stupid. Heard we were going to freeze tonight and daughter in law says they have not wrapped the pipes at their camper. I say well you can do it tonight. They \"well how are we supposed to do that we are here\". I say well when you head back down after class. \"Um I am going straight to work after class. I told you that\". Says my son. I look at my daughter in law and say well she can. They say well why would she drive down there. She is staying at my house tonight. Oh gee how was I to know that. Not like they even told me they were going to be here for dinner. Guess I am just supposed to know.
ugh must be going around tonight because my middle son at college just got rude with me too.I was worried because he\'s always on facebook and it showed he hadnt signed in in 7 hours plus he was going on a run in an area he didnt know well by himself today.So i got really worried and called him and he was rude and said \"somedays i wont sign in at all and i said \"well u know im sitting here waiting to hear from u\" and he said\"oh i never thought of that..that was hurtful.sorry venting in ur journal....kids these days so rude sometimes!
Hopefully after tax season you can get a break to rest your brain! THIS TOO SHALL PASS :) I know you worry about the boys but believe me...we will do stupid stuff not matter if you worry or not :) It\'s all good P!!!
I really hope things get better for you. Lots of hugs honey.
sounds like you could use a break ....aren\'t children ...wounderfull ...when they reach these ages ..it is time for you to start looking after number one .....I use to be looking after all my kids long after they were moved out and on there owen ...I was still doing all kinds of things for them babysitting all the time ..giving them money ...making sure ..not one was fighting somthing everything over between them all .all the time untill I came across a broblem I couldent fix ..and everything just came dowen on top of me .....my doctor told me that if I ever wanted to get better ..than I had to be number one my h number two and the rest dident count ....I thought he was nuts that was so forensic to me ...but I had to do somthing ..so I tryed it his way ...and it worked it works ...and the kids were fine on there owen ...and now I can just visit them and not have to get all involved in ...the dram that might be going on ....I just couldent take it any more .....I was not in shape ....for any of it ......and everything ...righted its self ....look after you .....your needs ....take good care of your self ....I keep you in my prayers .....God bless