I don't know where the despair comes from. I'm OK, coping or at least not feeling, and then all of a sudden, I'm crying and hopeless again. Full of hopelessness, self-loathing, no motivation. Just wanting to curl up and sleep forever.
I listen to sad songs over and over. All those doubts and fears come back. So alone. I wish I could tell someone how I feel but I can't bear the thought of looking as pathetic as I feel. Right now I just want someone to hug me and tell me it'll be OK but in reality I know that although right now that's what I need, once I'm back on an even keel again, I'll just be full of embarrassment. I know why people self harm. Must be a release.
 
 

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I feel the same right now, I\'m snowed in and that\'s the shittiest feeling because I cant physically go escape and I already have enough trouble figuring out how to escape the pain in the first place. I have been writing and doing art therapy which is just drawing what your feeling and it helps. but your not alone at all right now, believe it