Yesterday I took a motorcycle ride - we stopped and I got two foals to come to the fence and let me pet them.  It was nice.  It was followed by unhappy news - but that doesn't take away from a wonderful morning.  I'm using vicodin whenever I need it (had to take it before the ride) and however much I need.  I'll regroup later and concentrate of pulling it back down again when I'm not so resentful about my almost zero days being screwed up with the percocet. Lisa told me about the counter tolerance and why my vicodin doesn't work anymore.  I took what felt like tons of vicodin to see Shakespeare and I couldn't sit still.  I know I practically ruined it for anyone sitting near me.  I had to find places to lay down at intermission.  I wrote the doctor a long letter and mailed it on 7/17 - it calmed me a bit.  7/16 three vicodin7/17 two vicodin (sleep back at 12 hours) 7/18 two vicodin (12 hrs)7/19 two and half vicodin, zofran, imitrex valium (12 hrs)