I tried to get home in time to not have to take another vicodin but Betty came over to dad's house and I had to stay 4/4 six vicodin imitrex zofran and valium Sunday I skipped SS I was so tired and maudlin.  I cried thru high church - the whole thing.  embarrassing.  took two vicodin.  was bright and laughing for lunch came home went to bed.  Called R to reach out.  Did okay there.  Took Lucy for a walk took two more to go to concert.  Barely made it to nine.  Went to bed 4/5 four vicodin Today, wrote from nine to twelve went to bed took two vicodin (all at one time - FU** THIS) so I can walk Lucy and go to the gym.  I looked up symptoms of ovarian cancer.  I've lost fourteen lbs.  The topomax and quitting dairy - but then I thought....cancer?  I just want it to be something that can be fixed or that will kill me.  I'm so depressed this is back and with such a vengeance.