Who is crazy now?  I took 3 valium - last night to sleep.  Didn't pick up trazodone in time.  But more than that I've been crazy since Monday afternoon.  Maybe before.  The R issue got way out of hand.  I practically hung up on him - feeling totally rejected.  Some of it was paranoia - but some of it is valid.  I'm calling a stop, protecting myself.  No blame unless he starts it. he uses language to trade info and uses stock phrases "I hate when that happens"I use language to play - I lob over a statement and Pam adds a spin and lobs it back I tell him just about everythingHe keeps thinks secret he belittles my gifts "it only took you a few minutes" Yesterday pain started late and without sleep it stayed.  I just quit the pain pills at nine in an attempt to sleep (in case they jacked me up) so I was awake and in pain 3/18 four and half vicodin three valium (may have been four)