I don't really feel so great.  a little nausea probably because I had one drink last night at the sunday school party.  The pain is bad - probably becuase I woke up thinking about the editor that refuses to call me back which launches me into a review of "this is how my whole life has gone" ... a "tape" that could be objectively true or objectively false.  I really want to shift to I have had the most wonderful live imaginable...I guess I'll have to figure out what I'm getting out of keeping the "this is what always happens to me" tape going.  One issue is definately the bipolar.  I don't know how much.  My new therapist will help with that.  My main goal will be to discover if I can shift my thinking by myself or if I need to add the welbutrin. 3/13 four vicodin... I got very tired around 9 - practically fell in a heap.