Took a vicodin late in the day.  I'm aggitated.  Maybe because the publisher is being snotty - more likely because I was stupid enough to get my hopes up.  My hands are ugly with red bumps - they hurt and I am constantly aware of them. My toes too.  Two valtrex a day isn't enough.  I will begin three a day today.  I was hoping to save money - but I have to stop doing that. I could be agitated because I'm in a mixed state.  I've upped the Lamictal to 100 day and 100 night - total of 200.  this should help with mood as well as migraines. I slept almost until 8 but I got a lot done yesterday.  Gardening might have made my hands hot and stimulated the break out.  I swear I can't think of any sun exposure.  I'm even wearing leather gloves in case the fabric isn't thick enough. My dissatisfaction is also a reflection of where I'm putting my attention.  I'm too focused on being valued.  I need to get back to my love of being under the radar.  I am conflicted because being valued is directly tied to my income.  BUT there is no reason loving anonymity can't lead to being valued.  It is as good a strategy as any - and not a crowded niche for sure. 1/14 one vicodin