Bad dream - lost my hair - extended storyline..just went on and on, mean people, humiliation, despair - a little kindness.  I woke up and was depressed from the dream and then something happened.  I thought "Not my fault" because I was struggling with should i call the doctor, do I need more meds...on and on...and then Screw it.  which was ..is nice. Thanks to Mommie dearest I always feel like it is myfault when I'm down/sick.  It's not my fault.  I do more than ANYONE i know to take care of my mental physical health.  And voila I felt better.   I'll take it.  I had pain and now it's gone. (coffee) so I'm on the computer and feeling pretty good. 1/11 one vicodin