Got up at 8 (awake earlier) felt good.  No real pain.  A bit of a headache and a bit of nausea (can't move fast in the morning) but so far so good.  Took a vicodin for the funeral last night - worn out and still meant pain.  took a valium in the afternoon - grief messes me up.  confusion, word loss, impaired decision making.  A very vulnerable feeling - like I'm at the mercy of my environment. 12/30 one vicodin, one valium