Bummer! Even though I slept well again, this morning I deal with nausea and pain. The pain was bad last night and I was proud to go all day without vicodin. But I overdid it. christmas is kicking my butt and yesterday was very very full. I didn't get to the gym...anyway, I took a zofran and a vicodin and I still feel like shit. I waited until my second cup of coffee when I usually feel better - but not today. My neck is the worst but shoulders, arms, legs and the nausea - I don't feel so good. I woke up at 5:30 - I'm still going to sleep early but the good sleep I'm getting means I only need 8 hours. I'm going back to being a morning person. OR the headache is waking me up. Either way - I am rested (if in pain) when I wake up. 12/22 NO VICODIN!12/23 one so far... I almost missed the therapy appt with mother. I was having Lea, Mary and Dad for lunch and though the appt was Tues. SO GLAD I was able to get there in 5 minutes. I completely released the idea of changing mom and found a way to happily focus on changing me. Happily focus is WAY different than grudgingly focus. Anyway, I will stop freaking out when she is critical, implies I'm a hypochondriac, or implies I'm abusing drugs. I will not freak out when she goes PLS. I will remove myself from the situation. And I will limit contact to situations from which I CAN remove myself. No travel, no one-on-one time, decreased frequency of contact. The explanation I've given for intentionally decreasing contact (to get my act together) satisfied her. I'm going to be happier - she may or may not, not my responsibility.
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