Yesterday I ran out of steam around 4 but I'd been going and blowin all day long.  I lay down but could not meditate - after an hour I was almost asleep but time to go to dad's I took a vicodin to make it.  I was sort of obsessing about getting stuff done - but it's 4 days until Christmas so I'm not going to treat that as abnormal.  I'm sleeping great - waking up at 7:30 or before feeling well rested.   I wake up with a headache and lots of neck back -sometimes leg hand pain.  But I have energy so I can get coffee and the coffee worked great this morning.  I had pain in church but not enough to take a vicodin.  It is 3 and I need to rest.  I want to go to a 3-6 Christmas party but not sure if I can do it without a vicodin - real pain from church, dog walk, gardening, crazy morning.  I will probably take it.  Community is healing and I'm getting better so I'm not so scared of addiction.