I had a migraine when I woke up yesterday...thought it might just be a headache so I took a vicodin...nope by 10 I realized I needed a imitrex,  Needed one and half more vicodin later to attend two events (standing/talking/being nice - pain causes me to withdraw/sit/sneer) 12/18 two and half vicodin, 2 imitrex - first morning after tramazodone slept well got up early12/19 imitrex, vicodin, zofran so far..got up early again I'm thinking the tramazodone is working, I pray it doesn't make the migraines worse and this is just coincidence.  I increased my effexor today for first time - 225 (from 150mg).  Nine oclock and I feel normal (which is amazing cause I was in real pain, nausea when I woke up at seven)  I considered cancelling my lunch and later a movie -but I'm tired of cancelling stuff.  I'll just take whatever I have to take to make it. I'm still obsessing about mother BUT I'm reaching some conclusions I will stop being a victim.  I will not get my feelings hurt anymore and if I can't manage my feelings I will remove myself from the situation until I can.I will stop taking responsibility for mother's feelings.  She can believe what she wants - it doesn't make it true.I will use the "imaginary sister" Samantha to improve my self talk. In explaining this to mother I will explain that when she goes PLS (pursed lip snit) I will remove myself from the situation.I love her.  I am proud to be her daughter.  I will not abandon here except for temporarily until I can get my act together.