Yesterday was a bit too full - but I used drugs to do it.  I get to have a normal life everynow and then.  I had two major conference calls in the morning. Holiday lunch, a party and then a play.  I rested in bed from 2 to 4...I took a valium pre-lunch because mom was going to be there and I'm manic anyway - I didn't want a migraine.  Took a vicodin during lunch. took two and a half vicodin to make it through the long evening.  Then a valium to sleep.  I just didn't feel like struggling.  I babied myself yesterday.  I have pain this morning, coffee hasn't killed it but I'll soldier on today because I've got no commitments and no people to deal with. 12/12 three vicodin two valium