I felt remarkably good yesterday. Is it so simple - just stop speaking to my mother? It certainly has a positive impact.  I feel so relaxed knowing I don't have to deal with her.  She still hasn't called to say she found a counselor for us.  I told her I'd pay for it so she has no excuse.  but I bet she doesn't do it.  If not, I'll deal with it in a week and suggest a set of rules or something.  I'll give it until next Monday. So only one vicodin yesterday - for my hips.  I swam instead of the elliptical machine.  But I don't feel like washing my hair.  I'll have to check out something else - the bike? for today. I feel remarkably good.  I had a really stressful dream again.  I wonder if that could be excascerbating my problems.  I wake up in a state of complete anxiety and have to repeat like a mantra.  YOU ARE HERE...and recount date, place, circumstances to calm myself.