I only took ONE PILL yesterday YEAHHHHH!   I hurt all the time but not enough that a little movement (or in the morning, coffee) can't help.  I swam yesterday instead of hurting my hip.  My mother put me into the bad bad place and now wants to be friends.  No way. I'm going to dad's house to spend the night.  And going to try to avoid First Prez 11 o'clock service if I can. I want to get well.  I'm still tallying my pill usage, it's taking HOURS but the neuro-psychiatrist will find it useful.  I think.  The truth is I think I'm getting worse.  Mother pulled the 'you are depending too much on prescription drugs" think on me and I swear to GOD, I should just let her be dead to me.  I get sucked back in and whammy.  The only way to avoid the whammy is to avoid getting sucked back in.  It's like bipolar  you love the highs  but they come with a price.