I slept 14 hours. It really pisses me off. It is SO unfair and yadayadayada I know I could have some worse disease but I don't. I can't "achieve" and I've always been an achiever. I can't plan, and I've always been a planner. I can give - but not too much. I had to lay down during church...then I practiced with the kiddies musical. I took two vicodin to make it. I was in bed by 7:30. Woke up at 9:30 for food (to neutralize pills), work up twice more but I was dead asleep. I had wild vivid dreams. I was rejected by my exhusband, dumped by a best friend...these are MY forms of nightmare. The last one I was on this plane, knowing I didn't have time to fly but choosing to fly anyway (old theme of I'll figure it out later). And in a way...I'm drifting with no idea of how I'll survive. I'm so very tired. I will go to the gym today, but not much else. I don't want to write. I resent the energy of my characters. They get to do stuff while I sit here in my pajamas.
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