I took a vicodin in church today ...and one last night during the movie. It's the sitting still that really gets me. I still feel 1000% better than I did so I'm not going to mourn a little pain. I'm extremely lucky to have a pain med that works...and at the lowest dose, too! Got my fifth B12 shot last night and I think that makes a huge difference. I'm dropping a bit of weight now that I have energy and I don't rely so much on chocolate to self-medicate. I haven't had a prayer at losing weight for so long - it seems foolish to count on it - but oh...to have a flat tummy would be so nice. (flat as in "don't look pregnant" I'll never be thin) I got really agitated in church. the preacher was bombing and I find it agonizing. I get embarrassed for him (he is the assoc) and I just want to leave. It is part of the bipolar thing that I get SO very agitated that I feel as if I literally am about to explode. I didn't go for coffee and instead took the dog for a brisk walk - that helped enormously. I've got a canvas ready - almost to paint and that will be fun and therapeutic as well. I'm not doing much work. OH...I did a great job for the board yesterday and taught the little darlings as church so...I've been DOING stuff. Just not work, work.
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