I'm doing alot better I finaly think I have let out alot of pent up feelings that I was trying to hold in and it was eating me up in side making me depressed one sec and the next a complete but hole the next. The feelings inside have chase woman that I cared for and just made a terrible person to around sometimes.  I feel alot more stable I'm alot more postive better dad and don't let my exwife get to me.  Now I have to work on my finaces I think I'm somewhat additive to spending money.  So I have to make a planner.  Might need help on that one never been good with money its ussly gone before I get it.