:/

I fall asleep with to much on my mind, I wake up with even more on my mind, and then by the end of the day I am overwhelmed with thoughts racing through my mind. The urge to cut right now is extremely high and I am trying harder than ever not to give in. I keep looking at my scars and have to say to myself don't create more of them, over and over again. I want to find a healthy alternative to cutting but everything I try doesn't satisfy the urge. People will tell me that they are here for me but i feel so alone... when i wake up in the middle of the night due to a severe reoccurring nightmare/ night terror and all i need is reassurance that everything is ok and that i'm safe, i realize it... I'm lying in my room... alone... no one that i could even call to talk to because it's the middle of the night. I'm so done with feeling like this. I just want to feel better for once that is all I am asking. Just for a little while can I somehow magically feel better...