I'm not really sure how I have been feeling lately. I'm flip flopping like a damn fish out of water.. I don't get it. I just don't get it. I find it so amusing how I can understand so many people, yet, I cannot understand myself. I never know from one moment to another what my mind will throw at me, and that scares the hell out of me. I'm trying so hard to take control over myself, but it seems I am too stubborn to take the bait.. I just don't know what to do. All I want is a little stability - is that so much to ask??