today is got to be one of the  worst days i have ever had i have cried and cried for the past few hours it seems my life is a messlots of people are trying to help especially lonelylee and i really appreciate it i know im a physco and im not denying that but the worst part of it is that im messing up my brother and sisters lives and i cant do it anymorei need medical help and i wil admit that but i have not got the guts to do it on my ownself harm is my way out