feeling frustrated, tired, sad, weak, angry, helpless, and fed up.
 I come from a family of 7, four boys and three girls, i am the youngest daughter. I lost one brother several years ago to alcoholism . My big sister, teresa, age 61, was just diagnosed with small cell aggressive carcinoma of the lung, and it is in her lymph's as well. She is such a trooper, she is the cocapelli (jokster) of the family, she is always the one to hold the rest of us together, now she can hardly move, talk, eat, or even breathe, shes on oxygen now. I just dont know haw to help her, i feel so useless, i understand she has to go through this with her family (husband, kids etc...) It is so hard to watch someone you love so much  be in such agonizing pain. She must endure chemo and radiation, supposed too start early Nov. 2015, her cancer is fast growing and in-operable , the Dr.s told her she will not be cured, but they could buy her a few more years. She is such a trooper, i wish i could be more like her. I am keeping a positive attitude because i believe in miracles and God.  Thanks for letting me vent.