Am I just too much of a fool? I know I don't need to be in this abusive relationship with my W but I also do not feel compelled to go either. She came at me friday night and hurt me verbally with out even trying. I ended up trying to excape her presence (since I was so angry and didn't want to hurt her) and went into the bathroom...NO LOCKS on the door. I turned on the shower and went into melt down mode...No I am never going to do anything drastic I just wanted to be by myself and cry. She had pushed my buttons on some stuff that happened while I was in the military. I have tried to supress so much in my life and it just all came to the surface. I know men aren't suppose to cry like babys but I couldn't help it. I sobbed for what seemed like hours and my W forced her way into the shower fully clothed crying saying she was so sorry. That she didn't mean to push me over the edge, I told her she knew just what she was doing and to leave me alone. She didn't and just stayed in the shower as I went through my full meltdown. I recouped after some time and got out she was shaking seeing what she had just done to me. She even said if I wanted a divorce after this I could have one with out any fight. I didn't say a word ,I was beat and went to the bedroom and slept for @ 12 hrs. She worked the next day and came home she acted like nothing had happened...WOW. I asked why should I stay? why after all of the crap she has done to me? she said she would be a broken person if I left but She under stood if I left her. I had a very long talk with her and discussed how I felt how she has torn my heart out of me and has never given us a fair try at having a marriage. She agreed that she had never thought of anyone except of herself, that she needed to change. BUT the next morning AGAIN...nothing...same stuff different day. SO I told her that I can't do this anymore....SO my head tells me to run like hell....but here I sit...thinking it could be worse?? While in al-anon (for my first marriage) I heard the definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again expecting different outcomes.. I guess I have reached that point of self realization where I see I am that person I heard about so many times.   I have to take some action and fix myself......