Another long time since I have updated my journal, at the end of last year I thought I had the world by the tail. I had a new job, I had just sold my house and I was married to the girl I grew up with. Well all that except of the selling of my house has changed, I was laid off from my dream job and am unemployed. I also found out my wife was having an affair with another woman. Since I found out about the affair she has decided I am the best thing she has ever had. We are still working on this broken marriage things are getting better but I still have suspicions at times. I will probably have these feelings for awhile; all of this has hit me at the core of who I am. I still have a lot of doubts as to the last year but I have become stronger through all of this. Today I am ok I don’t look back and don’t fear tomorrow, a peace has fallen over me so that I don’t have high expectations for now.