Well another day and I seem to be doing the two step with my wife. I seem to be feeling better with what happened and then I slide back to the place I started from. I really want to move forward but I can't let go of the past. I know she wants to forget what happened and go forward also, than she plays with her meds again and there we are starting over from where we just were. At least it does appear that things ar getting more managable again for now. I am both physically and mentally tired. I slept like a baby last night and hope it will be the same tonight. I am trying to deal with her bp , reading and chatting with more people who either have bp or are dealing with a family member with it. I find the more I understand the more comfortable I get dealing with it. Oh well for the most part the day has been good.