it's been a while!

it's been awhile scince I have added anything to my journal. It is April 2016 and it is still snowing, what gives! I am suppose to go to my diabetic group a 215 but instead I think I will just go straight home.I hope the sanders have been doing the roads, I will just take the long way home it is slower but not to many hills. Depression has been a part of my life, but that's not all I have a loving and supportive family, alchol magnified my depression by 50% so I an not doing that GIG ANY LONGER, Food now seems to have taken it's place. I am not happy about this and a lot of other things like my high B\p diabeties,gourd,high collestroll and obesity, all on top of the depresional,seasonal disorder. Not to mention fibomyalgia and arthritis. Each day I try to give it over to god but I seem somehow to take it back felling guilt low self esteem and oh ya that D word.i think sometimes a part time job would help, but because I am on a dissabilty you have to report to them your earnings , it's a visous cycle realy. I feel this way today but perhaps in the new future I will see the light on all of this. I know there are so many people out there that  has as many problems if not more.