Well...  i've been doing pretty good. i'm slowly getting over the miscarriage. i realize that it's not my fault and that everything happens for a reason... it's still hard tho. i have the support from friends but it still is eating at me. I guess it'll just take me a while to get over it.  Brenden wants to be friends again.. i don't even know if i can do that. Sure I fell in love with him and still care about him I just don't think that I can ever go back to him.  He ripped out my heart not only once but three times. The really suspecting thing is he didn't want anything to do with me until him and his new girlfreind broke up. thats a big reason why I don't want to.. I'm not going to get used again. i'm going to be careful with austin and hopefully things work out..... well i'm out of time.. i will write later