oooh!!! skyler is an ass!! he pisses me off!! god he treats me like crap and expects us to be friends!! whats up with him?? boys are stupid!! and my mom isn't helping things at all. she's off the drugs but is still treating me like crap!and my dad is stupid enough to believe her! she won't leave me alone and my dad just takes her side on everything and won't stick up for me at all! i wish that he would open up his eyes and see how she really acts! i just don't know what to do anymore! i am done with it all! oh and i have decided that i need to go and see a shrink cuz that would probably be a smart thing to do. i don't think that my parents will go forit but who knows.. maybe since it'll be more time with me out of the picture they'll let me. i just am so confused! one second my dad is trying to act like my friend and doesn't care what i do and then the next he turns back into being a dad and tellin me off for any little thing that i do. i mean i wish he could just be my dad all of the time! it would be easier to take punishment and stuff if he would just be a father figure all of the time. it's like sometimes he'll joke around with me and let me swear and stuff and then the next second he's telling me off bout it. i mean when he gets mad at me he'll say a bunch of stuff to me and i'll take it personal and then he thinks that it's just okay to say sorry and move n. and then he gets mad at me for bringing it back up.  but anyways..... i am so tired today!!i went to a dance on friday and i think i reopened my surgery incision1 it hurts so bad!!!