Good News

I did take a Xanax yesterday prior to leaving as I was stressed/anxious.  But was really good drive up to Philly.  And there was even a traffic jam on the bridge which is usually where I freak out and I was great!  I was listening to the Charlie Sheen interview with Howard Stern, so that also helped take the focus off of where I was.  But it went really well and I am happy.  the meeting with the home office people also went really well!  I am working with them on making my job better and I was so happy with how things went and was so happy I was the one chosen to do it!  Had a great conversation with my boss today about how it went and some ideas to make my job better.  I also got my annual review today and I got a "surpassed/outstanding" and got a 6% raise!  Woo Hoo!  This bumped me up to another level. 
The sun is out today.  The sky is a beautiful blue.  It is maybe 50 degrees and the snow is pretty much all gone now.  1 small pile left in cul de sac from the snow plow.  Crocuses and daffodils peaking through the ground!  Woo Hoo!
Meeting yesterday for David went well.  No resolution but I guess appears things moving in the right direction.  Slow but positive.  We are getting a drug/alcohol evaluation done and also a psyche evaluation done.  This will give them a place to start.  Then appears David will get 6 hrs of intense therapy a week- home, school, in their office, 1 on 1 and group therapy.  The i's have to get dotted first, but to me, this is the right direction.  There is NO doubt in my mind that the pot, alcohol, cigarettes and even food are him trying to soothe/medicate himself, make himself feel better due to he cannot deal with anything that frustrates him.  He even said to the woman yesterday:  "If you can't get me the ability to talk to and see my sister and brother, then I am not going to participate in any counseling."  Then he says "It's my problem.  It is none of your business and I am going to handle it myself."  she asks "how are you going to handle it?"  "He says I don't know."    Then he got mad, threw the paper and pencil and stormed out of the room.  I said "I rest my case."  She saw first hand just how quickly he gets frustrated and "fights or flees." 
Paul hooked up my cable and my new tv in my new kitchen!  Woo Hoo!  he made me coffee this morning.  We went out to dinner last night to the restaurant where Paul and I met 21 years ago:  Stanley's Tavern.  I had salmon baked on cedar plank with rice pilaf and fresh string beans and diet coke.  Yum!  So food is back on track.  Gastritis is getting better.  A little nauseous.  But can deal with it.  Full fledged TOM started yesterday.  Thank God the cramps are gone.  Started a whole week early.  And I got the ok from boss to take Friday off. 

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JoyceMarilyn
JoyceMarilyn

I am sooo glad to hear David\'s appt. went well. It is so sad that he wants everyone to do for him and he does not want to take the responsibility for his actions. If he wants to see his brothers and sisters HE should try to earn the right. He just does not get it does he??? So sad...I do not know how you stay sane.
How nice to have a romantic night out with Hubby!
Super on getting Friday off - cleaning day right?
Kahlua13
Kahlua13

Yep. Cleaning day. It wasn\'t too romantic of a dinner as David was with us, LOL!
Kahlua13
Kahlua13

7pm. Just left a message on non emergency police. Waiting for call back. David\'s bike was stolen within the last hour right out of the back of my husband\'s car! They went out to go to church and the door and back hatch were wide open. If the kid that David bought the pot from is NOT in jail, he is definitely my first guess. DAMN! David is off the charts angry.
deleted_user
deleted_user

Well, dang, I guess I can still say that I was happy with how many positives I read about in your journal -- sorry about the bike theft at the end there! Hoping David holds it together tonight (((hug))) tough break.
deleted_user
deleted_user

I, like anne was doing a happy happy dance for you after reading your journal, you sounded so upbeat and positive and it was so wonderful to read after all you have been through, only to come to the part about David\'s bike being stolen. I am so sorry to hear about that, but do try to hang onto all the great things that have been happening too....Big hugs xxx
cath04
cath04

Ok so there was a downner at the end of it all, with David\'s bike being stolen, but like buckstopshere says, hang on to all the good things that happened. You sounded so upbeat, things can get better you see, and they will hopefully keep getting better from now on. Take care.
ZECILKL
ZECILKL

you do sound very up beat. I hope you can continue that way and use less medication.(x). Congrats on the raise and great review.. You work so hard you deserve it. now that you got the raise and review maybe you can help make your job better and lower some of your stress.

I wish for David\'s sake that he can see his sister and brother .. this may help his helplessness and make him feel better. that maybe a step to getting him back on track. He may feel that he has no control not being able to control whether he sees his family. I wish you luck with all this. Hopefully the counselor can get threw to him and he can start talking out his feelings.

Good luck with everything
yoohoolouie
yoohoolouie

Woo hoo on the job performance review and the raise!! That\'ll show that guy that was complaining a while back. You rock at your job! Validation! I hope they get it set up now that the weight of everything isn\'t solely on your shoulders at work and that the hours are more regulated. That is a stressful job and we need wonderful people like you in those positions and happy there. Yay!
Hope David\'s counselors really come through.
deleted_user
deleted_user

There is always something that pops up to mess up the good times. I hope David gets his bike back. At lest you are going in the right direction to get some help for him even if it is slow.
Take care of youself.