So So

Last week was rough.  I think meds are making me sleepy, and perhaps a little depressed?  Not to mention what is going on here.  I am so tired and feel so blah and don't feel like doing anything.  I almost feel robotic at times and just want to go to bed.  I can't even read my book.  Have appt to go to Dr on 9/1/10.  Will discuss this with him.  Have not taken Xanax in a few days.  Got 3 new fires last week and just feeling like getting no where.  House is a mess and Paul is all stressed out and screaming.  He does apologize at times.  He recognizes his behavior.   no panic attacks in several weeks, but a bunch of hot flashes/nausea.  Today, woke up feeling like I am getting a summer cold- sore throat, sneezes, sniffles, achy, head filled up, etc.
School starts 8/31.  Yeah!  Not a bad summer all things considering where David is concerned, but he was grounded for quite some time for the incident at the store.  I need to schedule a week to go visit my Dad and go away.  I think it will help to have something to look forward to, and I need time off.  I am taking 9/22 off to go see Jersey Boys on Broadway with my Mom and Paul in NYC. 
I went to Atlantic City on Saturday and Sunday with some friends.  It was ok.  I almost didn't want to go.  Paul throwing guilt trips on me did not help.  4 of us went.  I did walk over 8 miles on Saturday and went dancing Saturday night at Cuba Libre in the Tropicanna.  It was Latin music.  A lot of fun.  They even played some music I recognized from Zumba class.  But there were some sleezy guys.  It did make me grateful to NOT be in the dating scene, that is for sure!  It was expensive, and I did throw $50 in a couple of slot machines.  And the food wasn't great (hamburger and fries at Johnny Rockets for lunch!, Ben & Jerry's chocolate ice cream on the boardwalk, tortellini and grilled vegetables for dinner, pizza for a snack on the boardwalk at 2AM after dancing.)  I did not drink, other than diet Coke, all night and some water.  I got in over 20,000 steps on Saturday.  it poured rain yesterday and we had high winds.  But we had good weather for the boardwalk on Saturday.  I did have a couple of bad hot flash/nausea episodes yesterday afternoon. 
So trying today to get past the blahs, get back to exercise, eating better.  Hopefully this cold will blow over soon.