80%
Well, I guess I could say I am 80%. I am on Prednisone, antibiotic, Antivert. Hopefully just an inner ear infection. I still occassionally get dizzy while driving but not as bad as before. Kind of whoozy, like drinking a glass of wine on an empty stomach. Still a little scary and trying not to throw myself into a panic attack while driving. My heart still races a little when I get scared, but not the "beat out of my chest" I had been feeling where I thought I was having a heart attack. I can say I am functioning and driving again but still worried/scared. Have appt to go back to Dr for follow up on Thursday afternoon. Still having occassional headaches as well.
Work is just plain BAD. The stress is so bad. 14 years with this company and I have never gone this stressed for this long without some kind of a break. And new requirements that take more time. I have to stop letting this get to me so much. I feel SO beat up right now.
I am very frustrated with husband, and sometimes son, but mostly husband. He is such a downer right now and it is like I don't want to even be around him. He just flies off the handle so easy. And with everything else I am going through right now, I feel like shaking him and saying "get a grip." He truly has no idea what stress is. Saturday was my 17 year anniversary and I didn't even want to talk to him. We went to dinner at my mom's last night and he just "dissed" David in front of everyone and was so negative. I said something to him in the car last night coming home and he got all upset. I said to him, "Sometimes you should just stop and listen to what you are saying." I feel like he thrives on negative and misery. It is sucking my energy right now.
We are going to Las Vegas on vacation (God Willing) on 3/31 for a week. I am kind of dreading it. I would rather stay home for a week of peace and quiet. I dread the 6 hr plane ride with my current physical situation. I dread being in a hotel for a week with my son and husband. I dread the battles over what to do and how much money to spend. And we will go to the Grand Canyon. I have been there before. Paul will take hours and hours of driving as he will have to stop at every pull off to "Ooh Aah" and take photos. So I dread the hours and hours in the car. Packing and unpacking for multiple hotels. Eating take out and restaurants for a week. Having no time to myself. So I am afraid I will come back in worse shape than I went. I have told Paul to cancel this trip several times now. My mom will watch my dog. At least I know she will be in good hands.
I did Zumba yesterday and felt fine. again, a little whoozy but otherwise ok. Praying to feel normal again soon. Food has been bad. Bloated and eating, and Prednisone not helping. This past weekend was 73 and sunny all weekend, so at least we caught a break there. Felt good. I am eating a lot and gained a couple pounds back. No worries. Once I get back on track, I know I can lose it again. Just want to minimize the damage.
I guess I should have called this entry "Praying for normal." I will try to catch up with everyone this week. Sorry I lost touch. Between work, illness, working some nights until 2AM, husband, etc, I have not been on DS or Facebook for several weeks. I had like 100+ gifts from Farmville all expire since they were so old! Just no time. After Easter, hoping things slow down. CRE will be over on Tuesday nights. Health Circle at the Y on Monday nights is temporarily cancelled due to lack of interest. I am subbing on Thursday nights for bowling in a league and also I am in a league on Friday nights, so hopefully they will be over soon. David and I will do a summer league together on Wednesday nights I think. And PRAYING that with better weather comes less claims!!!!!!! We had over 1500 claims last weekend alone (a week ago) from the wind/rain storms between PA and New England!
Thanks to my dear friends for sticking by me and thinking of me! Seriously, I think of you ALL often. Just hoping to get more time to stay in touch!
Work is just plain BAD. The stress is so bad. 14 years with this company and I have never gone this stressed for this long without some kind of a break. And new requirements that take more time. I have to stop letting this get to me so much. I feel SO beat up right now.
I am very frustrated with husband, and sometimes son, but mostly husband. He is such a downer right now and it is like I don't want to even be around him. He just flies off the handle so easy. And with everything else I am going through right now, I feel like shaking him and saying "get a grip." He truly has no idea what stress is. Saturday was my 17 year anniversary and I didn't even want to talk to him. We went to dinner at my mom's last night and he just "dissed" David in front of everyone and was so negative. I said something to him in the car last night coming home and he got all upset. I said to him, "Sometimes you should just stop and listen to what you are saying." I feel like he thrives on negative and misery. It is sucking my energy right now.
We are going to Las Vegas on vacation (God Willing) on 3/31 for a week. I am kind of dreading it. I would rather stay home for a week of peace and quiet. I dread the 6 hr plane ride with my current physical situation. I dread being in a hotel for a week with my son and husband. I dread the battles over what to do and how much money to spend. And we will go to the Grand Canyon. I have been there before. Paul will take hours and hours of driving as he will have to stop at every pull off to "Ooh Aah" and take photos. So I dread the hours and hours in the car. Packing and unpacking for multiple hotels. Eating take out and restaurants for a week. Having no time to myself. So I am afraid I will come back in worse shape than I went. I have told Paul to cancel this trip several times now. My mom will watch my dog. At least I know she will be in good hands.
I did Zumba yesterday and felt fine. again, a little whoozy but otherwise ok. Praying to feel normal again soon. Food has been bad. Bloated and eating, and Prednisone not helping. This past weekend was 73 and sunny all weekend, so at least we caught a break there. Felt good. I am eating a lot and gained a couple pounds back. No worries. Once I get back on track, I know I can lose it again. Just want to minimize the damage.
I guess I should have called this entry "Praying for normal." I will try to catch up with everyone this week. Sorry I lost touch. Between work, illness, working some nights until 2AM, husband, etc, I have not been on DS or Facebook for several weeks. I had like 100+ gifts from Farmville all expire since they were so old! Just no time. After Easter, hoping things slow down. CRE will be over on Tuesday nights. Health Circle at the Y on Monday nights is temporarily cancelled due to lack of interest. I am subbing on Thursday nights for bowling in a league and also I am in a league on Friday nights, so hopefully they will be over soon. David and I will do a summer league together on Wednesday nights I think. And PRAYING that with better weather comes less claims!!!!!!! We had over 1500 claims last weekend alone (a week ago) from the wind/rain storms between PA and New England!
Thanks to my dear friends for sticking by me and thinking of me! Seriously, I think of you ALL often. Just hoping to get more time to stay in touch!
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