First: Sorry guys I have not been on here in almost a week! OMG! But I was having internet problems again. I had had problems before with DS and uploaded Firefox and then have since gotten an upgrade. That (fingers crossed) seems to have solved my DS problems with it being slow, hitting an emoticon and it not entering, typing in a journal and hitting enter and the computer freezing up, not being able to get into some people's journals, etc. But over the last couple of weeks, I had intermittent service. With my work laptop, I have to sign in to get in through firewalls, etc. So every time the internet would disconnect, I would have to sign back in with my work laptop. VERY VERY frustrating and time consuming. And now, with the stress and workload, was not a good time for this. So I ended up working on my air card last week. And you call Comast and they can't come out for 4 days! So it finally got fixed this past Thursday. I had a corroded wire connector outside at the box. It was also causing things to go slow. So hopefully, I have increased speed as well. Last week at this point is almost best forgotten. I am not hanging in the towel. I am not giving up. But I completely gave up and failed and just hung by my fingernails. Got 3 new fires at work. Was on the road a few days. Did finish one estimate- 349 pages! Try to imagine having to make a list of EVERYTHING you own inside your home- clothes, furniture, spatulas, china, pencils, shovels, bags of mulch in your garage, lamps, shoes, underwear, toys, etc. This is what I do for a living with people who have lost their home. Love the job, just too much. Should be getting some help on 8/17. Just have to hang in there 1 more week. Ate really bad last week. Back to smoking, bad. Steps and exercise, bad. Worked late most nights. One night I was up working until 2am. Not sleeping well at all. Last night was particularly bad. Shame. I was exhausted and thought I would just pass out but I tossed and turned all night. David was supposed to go over his foster mom's to spend the week with her in Virginia but he had a melt down (over not wanting to wear swim shorts!!!!!) So we took him there yesterday. So David is away for a week. Love him and miss him but will be nice just the same. Paul thinks that David is fighting me in retaliation against his biological mother. His anger and even physical-ness is almost always against me. He called last night and didn't even want to talk to me. We went to my mom's last night for dinner. Got my hair colored and cut. Paul got a hair cut. (Mom is a hairdresser and has a salon in her home.) Bad storms again last night and came home to no power. Thank God, 4 hrs, came back on. We have a generator and were getting ready to hook it up. Don't want to lose refrigerated/frozen food. I didn't write anything down. I guess I just threw my hands up in the air and gave up. I am SO exhausted today, I just could not go to the Y. I am going to try to get to bed early, maybe even take a sleeping pill or something. This week: just going to get backto basics: write everything down, beginning today. Get back to my 10,000 steps per day. Get to the Y 3 times this week. Get back to drinking water. (will worry about how much next week. Any water at this point is an increase.) Still dreaming of 136 by Penn State. I cannot wait to go to that game! I love the Fall. I hear the marching band at the high school down the street practicing. Philadelphia Eagles football camp on TV. Whoo Hoo! Determined, one way or another to have a productive week this week.