Phew! The week is over & I survived! Very very stressful. But I have a few days to pack. Part of me can't wait to go away and part of me is dreading it. I hate leaving Kona with my Mom for the week, although I can't think of anyone who I would want her with more. My little girl just follows me everywhere. At least I look like my mom and my husband and son say I sound just like her. So if she can't have me for the week, the next best thing is my stunt double. Still debating whether or not to take the work laptop. Still reading Angels and Demons by Dan Brown. It is one of the best books I have read in a long time. Still shorthanded at work and no relief in site. It is almost July and fire season hits in October. Just don't know how I will survive fire season this year short handed. I guess I can't worry about it now. Had another small anxiety attack this am. But I am wondering if it is partly peri menopause? Have to get my blood checked for the hormone levels first thing I think when I come back. My heart races, I get light headed and warm. Sometimes I feel like I am going to pass out. This week was rough. Bad eating, not so good exercise and just tired and overwhelmed. Well, I guess a couple of weeks off will do me good. No phone ringing. No customers screaming. Eating out every day next week is a little scary. But whatever happens, I will just deal with it when I come back. This is a journey, right? will just focus on getting in my steps. My dad called all worried. I understand his concern. When David goes off, he goes off. But we survive and then it is over and most of the time, he becomes really good. I just love him so much and it breaks my heart to see him get that way. And Paul and David just nudge each other on further and further. Paul needs to get a life. Sometimes, he can be stifeling. He is out playing cards tonight with some guys. Usually he gets away like this and he is happy for a while. Praying that this week is a good one for all of us and that we all get a little boost. Have to clean and pack. OMG! David and I cleaned the house really nice and Paul came home from Utah and in 2 days it was a disaster area again. That just takes the wind out of my sails, big time. I did not feel like cooking this week, hence eating take out and junk. I did not feel like cleaning. But I did go to the grocery store today and bought some grapes and little Dole fruit cups were on sale and some nuts for the trip for snacks. I got fruit snacks for David (in the hopes he won't eat so much candy.) I also got some apple cinnamon rice cakes. I am also going to bring my high fiber oatmeal and my little cup at a time coffee maker to make hot water. This way I won't be eating Egg McMuffins everyday or going to restaurants for breakfast for pancakes and all the fixings.