Phew!  The week is over & I survived!  Very very stressful.  But I have a few days to pack.  Part of me can't wait to go away and part of me is dreading it.  I hate leaving Kona with my Mom for the week, although I can't think of anyone who I would want her with more.  My little girl just follows me everywhere.  At least I look like my mom and my husband and son say I sound just like her.  So if she can't have me for the week, the next best thing is my stunt double.   Still debating whether or not to take the work laptop.  Still reading Angels and Demons by Dan Brown.  It is one of the best books I have read in a long time.  Still shorthanded at work and no relief in site.  It is almost July and fire season hits in October.  Just don't know how I will survive fire season this year short handed.  I guess I can't worry about it now.  Had another small anxiety attack this am.  But I am wondering if it is partly peri menopause?  Have to get my blood checked for the hormone levels first thing I think when I come back.  My heart races, I get light headed and warm. Sometimes I feel like I am going to pass out.   This week was rough.  Bad eating, not so good exercise and just tired and overwhelmed.  Well, I guess a couple of weeks off will do me good.  No phone ringing.  No customers screaming.  Eating out every day next week is a little scary.  But whatever happens, I will just deal with it when I come back.  This is a journey, right?  will just focus on getting in my steps.   My dad called all worried.  I understand his concern.  When David goes off, he goes off.  But we survive and then it is over and most of the time, he becomes really good.  I just love him so much and it breaks my heart to see him get that way.  And Paul and David just nudge each other on further and further.  Paul needs to get a life.  Sometimes, he can be stifeling.  He is out playing cards tonight with some guys.  Usually he gets away like this and he is happy for a while.  Praying that this week is a good one for all of us and that we all get a little boost. Have to clean and pack.  OMG!  David and I cleaned the house really nice and Paul came home from Utah and in 2 days it was a disaster area again.  That just takes the wind out of my sails, big time.  I did not feel like cooking this week, hence eating take out and junk.  I did not feel like cleaning.  But I did go to the grocery store today and bought some grapes and little Dole fruit cups were on sale and some nuts for the trip for snacks.  I got fruit snacks for David (in the hopes he won't eat so much candy.)  I also got some apple cinnamon rice cakes.  I am also going to bring my high fiber oatmeal and my little cup at a time coffee maker to make hot water.  This way I won't be eating Egg McMuffins everyday or going to restaurants for breakfast for pancakes and all the fixings. 

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Sorry it took me a while to finally catch up, I do think of you and only wish you and your family the best, thanks for always thinking of me, your always cheer me up and give me that lift I need. I sure hope you have a wonderful vacation - that will be nice. Hope you get lots of reading and hiking time, hope the weather is the best ever! OMG, I can\'t stand that stuff, so glad Kona was saved and has such a wonderful home. I just read in the papers about elderly and hording animals, some die and animals left there till someone finds them, so very sad. Thank GOD for animals, I just love my 3 dogs and they love us - it all in how you care for them and I know I\'m safe when they are with me. The puppy is about 70 lbs and he will be 5 months in a week, wow how fast they grow. He is the best puppy ever, just calm and so very happy and doing great. Sounds like your exercise is on track and your doing your best, I am the same way, good eating and not so much exercise or vise versa, can\'t seem to put 2 and 2 together at the same time. It takes time and we will get there. Great job on your jogging, that is great, don\'t over do it and just add a little time each week, you will get there. Some say jogging is not necessary but walking is best especially for your knees, etc. I can tell my knees are getting sore and it may be cuz of my shoes, I think after this run I\'m gonna finally break down and get a real good pair. Sounds like your all planned, don\'t stress, just have a good time and can\'t wait to hear all about it. Enjoy and have fun on your vacation and whatever happens happens and when you get back you can focus more. Sorry about that guy and his fire, so sad and his family has to suffer. People are just not right these days with the economy, very stressful and they can\'t even think straight, I have to keep reminding myself that there are more less unfortunate than me so I\'d better be happy and take what I\'ve got and appreciate it. Well I\'d better get my little guy to bed, he fell asleep on the couch. OH, we had some rainbows the other night after all the rain and I agree, they are so beautiful, Jimmy thinks they are so cool too. Just love em, makes my rain day good :-) Take care, be safe and have fun! Enjoy Enjoy and Enjoy!
JoyceMarilyn
JoyceMarilyn

Hope you have a fantastic vacation! A time to get refreshed. Enjoy!
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Don\'t you just feel like that saying - \"doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results is the definition of insanity\"???? when you keep cleaning the same thing and it ends up the exact same disaster it just was??!!! Lol I know I feel insane when I clean the house and half an hour later it\'s a disaster! Hang in there! Enjoy that vacation!
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frndsrgldn

That is too funny that Utah is where we went on our vacation of sorts! haha Went the end of june to the 7th of july! We had fun too! My mom took care of our pets too! lol Menopause can mess with ya alot...am doin that too! Anxiety attacks and so forth! (((HUGS)))