Hanging in there

So Monday I ended up with 14,800 steps!  And yesterday I ended up with 11,300.  Eating is better, but much much room for improvement.  Went to a jewelry party Monday night and then shopping with my stepmom and step sister yesterday, so I ate junk food a few times.  Today's eating was just ok.  So I am continuing to focus on 10,000 steps every day.  I am still drinking some water.  Will try to get a little better with that.  How many ounces is a bottle of water?  Is it 16 oz?  I am trying to drink 4 of those per day.  I know I am supposed to be drinking like 64 oz of water.  So hoping that a bottle of water, like Deerpark or Poland Springs is 16 oz.  It says .5 liter on the bottle.   Yesterday turned out to be a really nice day.  I went shopping with Shirley, my stepmom, and her daughter, Lori.  Lori's mother in law also came.  The weather was perfect.  It was like 70 and sunny.  Lancaster PA is just beautiful this time of year.  Many horse and buggies all over.  The Amish farmers were all out planting.  Everything is green.  AHHH!  The lovely smell of cow manure everywhere!  NOT!  We went to a bakery and I had a strawberry cheese croissant and some coffee.  OMG, it was SO good.  I know, a zillion calories.  Hopefully walked it off some shopping at the outlets.  Felt really guilty spending money since I went to Lori's house Monday night for a Silpada jewelry party and bought myself a freshwater pearl necklace, earrings and bracelet.  But the Outlets were calling!  I bought a Brighton necklace, earring and bracelet set.  I bought a blouse from Liz Claiborne, a blouse from Dress Barn.  I bought a beautiful purse from Fossil for $39.99 for the summer!  So my birthday is next Saturday, 5/23.  So I gave the bags to Paul and told him to give me these things for my birthday.  Now I don't feel as guilty.  Now I get things I want for my birthday.  I can't wait to lose weight and buy some new clothes.   I almost hated buying those two blouses.  But the style is such that I can wear it big if I lose weight.  And it will help me feel a little better until then.  The one shirt really looks great and looks like I lost the 15 more lbs already.  I want to feel pretty again.  Wait.  I want to feel pretty for the first time in my life.  I guess that explains the jewelry, since I don't wear jewelry that often.  I want to dress better and be more fashionable.  I want to look and feel better.  I think this shopping trip motivated me even more.  I know where I want to be.   I worked from home today.  Stlll very stressed out and at times hyperventilated today.  Anxiety attacks.  I did get a lot done today.  Praying, praying, praying for a slowdown and that I get some more office time.  If I get 3-4 days of office time, I will be ok.   I have not been to the Y this week.  I am going to go tomorrow am, Friday and Saturday.  That will be 3x this week.   So focus is:  1)  continue with 10,000 steps + per day2)  try to drink more water, 4 bottles per day is goal3)  eat better (I am tracking with WW points, but not doing so well)4)  eat healthier (more fruits and veggies)5)  Get to YMCA 3-4 times per week for cardio and weights6)  Bender ball or other exercise on days I don't go to Y7)  at least 30 min of exercise per day (ie:  walking)8)  try to find "me" time for reading, games, tv, movies, facial, etc (something I like or something that is not food related that helps me feel better)