In spite of my family, I feel pretty good today.  Son had one of his anger fits this AM before school.  He asks to bring soda to school for lunch.  He says they are allowed and I say "no, YOU are not allowed to bring soda to school."  He begins to slam things, throw things.  I go back in his room and I tell him to stop and finish getting ready for school and he says "no."  More banging, throwing.  His face is just filled with anger.  I am so worried about this kid.  It always involves him not getting his way.  I would imagine again, that it is only here with us, his parents.  I am also worried about husband.  His job has gone under.  He has now informed me he is going to see a psychiatrist, which I am very supportive of.  But he has in his head this dream of the way things are supposed to be, what his relationship is supposed to be like with his son, what his career is supposed to be like.  There is a rift between him and David and that worries me too.  Paul pulls himself back away.  He said, after David left for school, that he thinks David is going to be a runaway.  Yeah, I have those worries too.  But what are my alternatives?  Give up?  Paul's reaction to things is to often pull back.  Not completely, like giving up, but it sets things back big time.  I am tired of trying to always pick up the slace. But I am focusing on positive and me and the things I can change and I will pray for my husband and my son.  I went to the Y Tues evening and did 50 min on the treadmill and hit 3 miles.  Boy, I have to say it felt great!  Back to trying to get over 10k on pedometer.  Did not get there on Monday.  Yesterday did Wii Fit for 35 min (love the rhythm boxing!) and also the Gazelle for 35 min.  Did 1.48 miles on Gazelle (this is harder to do than just treadmill as I am using the resistance.  Kind of like walking knee deep in water.)   I tried on the size 12 pants today.  Could not get them buttoned (yet) but got them on.  I am close.  And for the first time could "see" a difference.  So it frustrated me and psyched me up at the same time.   Working from home today.  Phone has only rung twice and Kona sleeping on my feet.  I so needed this break.