Thank God football season is not over for me yet.  What a total bummer about Penn State losing the Rose Bowl.  But it was a good game and a good season.  I will have to take a ride up to State College in the Spring to buy a couple of t shirts.  Now the Eagles game on Sunday!  YAY!  Everywhere I am driving in PA, up and down the PA turnpike, there are signs lit up saying "Turnpike Super Bowl.  Go Eagles!  Go Steelers!"  Wouldn't that be a trip if the Super Bowl was the Eagles and the Steelers?  I am also a Ravens fan.  Joe Flacco is of course from DE.  But still, Eagles are my favorite.  If they won the Super Bowl, it would be the come back of the century.   Still struggling with eating too much at night.  I do great all day and then sabotage it by sitting in front of that stupid tv and mindlesly eating.  Too cold to take the dog out at night for walks.  I really have to focus next week to do better.  I have a feeling I am going to be the same this week, neither gaining nor losing.  And that is so frustrating.  I keep thinking "I should at least be down to a size 12 by now.  I should have lost another 6 lbs by now."  And that is negative thinking and it is hard to stop.  But I am frustrated.  I only have myself to blame.    Next week:  Need to eat better/less and exercise more.    David has been doing a little better.  My husband is a pain.  Just really sees the worst in people and the last week is just fuel to Paul.  Sometimes he does not see David as a kid making stupid mistakes.  He thinks David does things on purpose just to piss him off.  Does David do things just to piss us off?  Yep.  But that is the exception I think.  I just don't think David does things out of vindictiveness most of the time.  I just don't think he thinks like that.  I think he hides things because of his ingrained fear to not get in trouble.  He covers himself so much that lying is just 2nd nature to him even when it does not make sense.  I just keep praying that with time, he will get better.   Hit the one year mark (1/12) of quitting smoking.  I still smoked one ever so often.  I was a pack a day smoker for over 23 years.  I still miss it.  I still crave cigarettes, often.  today is pretty bad.  I have gotten up 6 times (not thinking) to walk to sun room to smoke a cigarette.  I currently don't have any.  But has been a subconcious thing all day today and driving me crazy.  Screwing up my focus to get other things done.  Ugh!