Work just really sucks right now.  Can't seem to get anywhere.  Can't make anyone happy.  Can't do enough.  I feel very defeated and frustrated.  Every time I think I am catching a break and getting things done, stuff happens that sets me right back again.  I just feel very sad.  This is so much more than a job for me.  And I keep dealing with problems from 1 1/2 years ago, and complaints.  They are cutting back a bunch of the awards this year, all trying to reduce expenses.  It is all about the stock price and the stock holders.  David shut down tonight for a while with his homework.  Thank God Paul stepped in and helped him.  I just have no patience right now.  I think they finished it. Praying for Spring and longer days.  January and February are so difficult for me with the cold and it gets dark early and now that the holidays are over.  I did exercise for a while on the Wii Fit.  Then I had to stop and make dinner.   Have to really fight through this depression.  This is usually when I plop in front of the tv and eat everything.  I just can't go there.  Have to find other ways to boost myself without wallowing in food.  God, this can be so hard.  I think it is worse than quitting smoking, and I smoked a pack a day for over 23 years! I just feel like it is demands coming at me from all sides.  OK, will be working on my lists this weekend.  One good thing, my BMI dropped out of the "Obese" column.  I did start my period on Tuesday, so must have been water weight.  This weekend:  Focus, prioritize, breathe, 1 day at a time.