Work just really sucks right now. Can't seem to get anywhere. Can't make anyone happy. Can't do enough. I feel very defeated and frustrated. Every time I think I am catching a break and getting things done, stuff happens that sets me right back again. I just feel very sad. This is so much more than a job for me. And I keep dealing with problems from 1 1/2 years ago, and complaints. They are cutting back a bunch of the awards this year, all trying to reduce expenses. It is all about the stock price and the stock holders. David shut down tonight for a while with his homework. Thank God Paul stepped in and helped him. I just have no patience right now. I think they finished it. Praying for Spring and longer days. January and February are so difficult for me with the cold and it gets dark early and now that the holidays are over. I did exercise for a while on the Wii Fit. Then I had to stop and make dinner. Have to really fight through this depression. This is usually when I plop in front of the tv and eat everything. I just can't go there. Have to find other ways to boost myself without wallowing in food. God, this can be so hard. I think it is worse than quitting smoking, and I smoked a pack a day for over 23 years! I just feel like it is demands coming at me from all sides. OK, will be working on my lists this weekend. One good thing, my BMI dropped out of the "Obese" column. I did start my period on Tuesday, so must have been water weight. This weekend: Focus, prioritize, breathe, 1 day at a time.
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Great that the BMI number is dropping! That is progress. I am ready for the longer days too. Ready to get outside and see green grass.
I can see how life can be overwehlming for you. What a journal full! I hear you on the weather too, I become slightly depressed and underactive in this weather too. I try to go out and shovel instead of use the snow blower to get SOME exercise, but I really need to do more. My friend is trying to get me to go back to step aerobics, but I\'ve not had the initiative to go. Keep up your good work honey, you\'re doing better than me at least. Hugs! Hang in there.
Yes, this time of the year is the worse for me too with depression. I hope it goes by fast soon, I\'m ready for spring too. It\'s tough staying on track but I know you can do it! Remember us and can count on us to help you get thru this tough time. Work doesn\'t help when it\'s stressful, I can understand that especially with year end stuff for me - doing it alone. Good job on the BMI, that\'s great news. Keep that in the back of your head as a reminder how far you have come and where you want to be at Yes, focus, prioritize and breath!!! Big Hugs!