Better day today.  I felt so horrible yesterday and all sorts of mean and horrible things came out of my mouth that I immediately regretted.  So much of it out of pain.  I went in and told David how much I loved him and I hugged him for a long time.  I know he loves us and I am frustrated because I can't seem to find the way to help him.  We went to bowling last night as a family.  (We bowl Sunday nights in a league.)  It was nice and all went well.  And all was normal with the world today.  He ate a good breakfast this am and got off to school without a hitch.  Got all his homework done this afternoon with little prompting.  So we will be ok for a little while.   I went to the Y and did my work out this morning.  Hoping to lose 2-3 lbs this week.  Desperately trying to go down to a 12 by Christmas.  I have 1 pair of jeans that are a 12 still with the tags on them from last year.  I had almost gotten into them too.  Today I ordered a winter coat at Lands End for a Christmas present to myself.  And it is a size 12.  That is how determined I am to get there.  2 weeks down, 3 weeks to go.   I think Santa bought me a Wii for Christmas!  OK, so now I am a little psyched.