struggling

Hi guys!I'm struggling this week.  I have no energy.  No drive to do anything.  Shane is doing OK in school.  Yes, he's very smart.  But our SID children do not conform and never will. As far as I am concerned it's an up hill battle until he's out of school.  Then I can see my son curing cancer for Pete's sake! I got hit with that bad stomach virus going around.  So I'm soooo out of sorts.  The family had a nice vacation during winter break.  We went to Vermont and had a blast.  Snow, snow and more snow.  It was a Winterwonderland. I miss my connection with my friends and hope everyone is well.  This has been a tough emotional rollercoaster ride.  I'm still sad about my Dad (I didn't think it would go away) and I'm not sure I'll ever be the same again.  I have embarked on working with the PTA and I'm doing a lot.  I feel very agriphobic (not sure I spelled that right) I cut my hair really short.  It's like I needed to let go of the past and literally shed my burdens.  Weird huh?I have a million and 1 things to do and do not wish to do any of them and I almost feel like i'm paralized.  Help!