Hi Guys: Well it is a new year and I am starting it with about 20 pounds to lose.  YUK :( So far I am dealing with a myriad of things that are not so pleasant.   1. We caught my mother's helper stealing (get this) medication!  My husband's Ambian and not only that but the Xanax my doctor prescribed for me and I never took.  I had over 60 pills and like 7 were left.  I took 1 or 2 during the time of my Father's death and that was it.  Not only that, but I had found a couple of pills on the floor.  I thought I was losing my mind.  It was her.  We had just giving her $100.00 for Christmas and then she was gone.  A slap in the face. 2. My sister and I are not as close as we were were before.  Her husband is very controlling and he's turned her head from her whole family.  She didn't even come for Christmas eve to my house.  Another slap in the face. 3. Shane got "Reader of the Month"  Whhooo Hooo!  I was sooo happy it's a very nice award to have (no many get it)  However, that was short lived.  Of course he is back to his shit at school.  The teacher pulled me aside which was embarrassing enough.  Then she asked to speak to me and my husband in a meeting to try to figure out what to do about Shane.  The SID is getting worse and feel like his OT is not giving him what he needs.  He is sooooo distracted all the time and very fresh to his teacher.  Disrespectful and he's only  5 year old for God's sake.  Am I supposed to be tortured at such an early stage?????  3rd slap in the face.I have to step his therapy.  It's a huge burden but I have to start doing his listening twice a day again.  Bouncing on the ball and brushing and joint compressions morning and night.  This is my fault.  I slipped but I'm back and I will make it my mission to turn this around.Pray for me. Aside from that I'm so sad about my Dad.